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well. thank God.. those bad times..are gone.. those bad feelings.. about myself.. well maybe.. i still don't know myself right? but sometimes i think that i know myself because i know my strengths and weaknesses.. and my likes. dislikes.. something like that...but i am often deny that i am like that even though my friends and family tell me that i am like that... sorry.. just understand what i've said. hahaha.

anyway..  wow! d ko pa pla nakwento.. last saturday... pmunta ulit kme ng tito ko and ate tata and with ate trixie this time sa oktoberfest! hahaha. well. that day..im sooo happy. nakanuod rin ako ulit ng mga favorite bands ko! orange and lemons and mojofly performed... and then new sa akin.. rocksteddy! but they're so good. love their songs.. haha! bagay na bagay saming mga sawi.. tsk tsk. tpos mga torpe.. mga.. hay nako.. wla lng. saya! i really had fun.. kc un tlga interest ko.. manood ng bands.. sumayaw bwahaha. =P tpos uminom rin ako ng mango daiquiri... sooo good. haha may rum xa.. sb ng sister ko.. at first, sarap tlga kc ripe mango.. then nagiiba na ung after taste nya.. haha. yum. tpos un.. we leave na at 1am.. kc tpos na ung bands...

JEC-AOC interaction was cancelled last wednesday pro moved sya on nov. 9... sna mag-enjoy kme ulit.. and hopefully all will participate and gain new friends AGAIN.  again? sa akin again. because last thursday.. we had the xavier-miriam interaction.. o db? msaya? haha. well i'll narrate the story. nung umaga. d mxdo excited kc pangit ung souvenir hnd maganda. hnd 'cool' tlga haha. mahangin. pro wla kme mggwa.. tpos napunta pa ko sa group nang hnd ksma cla danielle..barkada ko sa class. tae tlga. although, ksma ko nmn mnms family.. kaso d rin complete pro at least andun cla ria and kathleen and karen! haha mga kakulitan ko.. then aun panatag na loob ko dhil dinaan nlng nmin sa pagtawa at mga kalokohan. thankful ako sa knila..pinasaya rin nila ako and nagkakasundo kc kme.. pro nsa akin rin dhil bigla ako nging hyper! tae.. sa kakakain cguro ng chocolate! hahaha. mula umaga... so dumating na ang xavierians... ayko tlga cla tgnan dhil malala.. bka marami ako mging crush.. bwahaha! tpos eh ang tatangkad pa nila.. tsk tsk asa? tpos un... the host..he's hot. nd funny. haha. =P so pumunta n kme sa groups namin which is pink and yellow grp.. hehe! fun. at nglakad na patungong college... kala nmin ateneo na e. haha =P so.. aun niligaw kme ng facilitators namin! hnd rin nila alam kng saan room... at nhanap din. introduce oneself..including what you love.. then we played ice breaker.. then isa pang game.. sayang hnd naabutan ung butt spell.. and charades.. kc kain ng kain!! hahah. =P tpos pinuntahan nmin cla jojo...sa ibang room PERO d nmin nkta at naligaw kme uli. parang cycle! un din dinaanan nmin knna.. haha! at wla.. picture picture.. so aun. fun din nmn ung facilitators nmin.. den y. and mark --- forgot sorry pro funny xa. ahah labo mag explain but he's a good leader. haha mga expert na sa mga interactions.. but then. aun. cool naman games.. pro hnd tama na buhatin ako.. at msya..ka group ko pala'y isang drummer! nyahaha =P then by 1.30pm balik na sa sportscom.. using xavier buses.. umuulan ksi... then program.. we had 2 dating games.. then 2 dance number.. haha kalokohan! then bands na rin.. saturday conspiracy [MC] and khampus [XS].. pro sabog. haha kakatwa... then we just talk and talk. tawa kme ng tawa ni karen!! puta..nkakauoto tlga kme.. labo nmin dlawa... kaso partner nmin quiet.. pro c "king" william.. kulit rin. haha. nkikisama sya. cooool. chinese na chinese ung features nya pro pinoy na pinoy ang puso. haha tae. ganun cla.. ok masaya rin.. haha. aun. ayaw ko umuwi nun kc aaral uli for bio long test!!!!

well.. i think i did my best in my bio long test.... good luck to me.. i am expecting myself to get good grades again this quarter... never fail like in 2nd quarter... tsk tsk... so. aun. happy.   it's good to have new friends.. just be yourself.. and always SMILE. right? sayang i didn't have the chance to know them all.. bcause i think they're all nice.. hnd mayabang or whatver.. except ung isa.. haha. may ksma nga pla kme students from 2-9.. they're nice. hehe. i'd say that i had a great time during the interaction kc..organized.. wahahaha. wla lng..  

i am bad. i don't deserve to live. i don't deserve to be loved. you don't know me. and maybe i still don't know myself either. i hate myself.  i am just nothing. just useless. just a human. no importance. i am sorry. i didn't mean to do it. i didn't mean to say it. i didn't appreciate what you've done and sacrificed for us. i must be thankful to God because He gave me a sister like you. i cannot be like you. you are different. you are strong and independent. i love admire your kindly words. your loving acts. your good attitude towards people. that sometimes i get so jealous of you. even though i know it's bad.. can't help it because it seems you got our parents' admiring assets and personality. that's why you get along well together. and me? just a daughter. just a someone. i am not like them. i am different. nothing to be admired of. nothing to be complimented to. but even thoguh i get jealous of you. i still love you. sister. for you i'll try to be strong. independent. mature. wise. determined. courageous. diligent. careful. loving. considerate. sensitive in a good way. know my limitations and think of the right choice. i love you. sister. never forget that. because i always wish you'll be happy. not only from friends, family or your course? or anything. because you know you've got the best friends and family. i wish you happiness from love.  love is really what you need. HE will make you happy. i don't know who is HE but i wish you'll find HIM soon. right?

if only you can read this. wish you could read this. but reading blogs is not your thing. so maybe i'll take all my courage to tell you what i want to express. thank you. sister. for everything... i miss you. i love you. wish we will be friends again.

waaaaaaaaaaah! haha. ang pinakamagandang nangyare sa buhay ko nangyare na. sobra. galing. tsk tsk. tama un. kc nung lunch.. sb ng ate ko "ren, gs2 m ko samahan sa robinsons pioneer? " [bbili xa ng gift for her friend's debut tonight and since nasa haus kme ng lola nmin, mlapit kme dun..] so i said yes. gs2 ko rin umikot. dhil may sale. haha! pro bad. pangit pla dun, wla mxdo mgandang shop. halos..fake ata ung ibang shops.. then umuwi na kme.. aba! umuulan ng malakas sa labas! so buti may mga jeep na nghhntay dun, automatic! pro nagcmula na mabasa ang slippers nmin pro wla na kme mggwa. so aun. umarangkada na! tpos "para po..." at npakagaling na driver! binaba kme sa baha! pota tlga un. so no choice.. kala nmin mbbaw lng tulad nung knna. pro hnde!!! malalim xa. shet. below the knee ang baha! huuuuuuu naiiyak na kme ni ate. tpos tawa prin kme ng tawa! d maintndhan.. naiiyak kme kc hnd na kme mkkpagsimba! hahabulin sna nmin ung 3pm sa divine mercy.. pro hnde. basang basa na kme sa ulan. as in lahat! kahit na may umbrella ate... haha. d kme kasya.. nyahaha! at aun humiram nlng kme ng clothes kay tita syvelle.. tsk tsk. sarap matulog! haha. diretso tulog na. comfeee.... so nanood nlng kme at dito nlng sa village kme mgssimba ng 5pm with our lola.. haaaay buhay. ang ganda nun. haha! nagising ako sa pagkabored sa robinsons. haha.

-----> skip to another topic. mejo malayo xa. haha. nagising lng ako sa katotohanan. i felt guilty of what i did last night to a friend. ___ told me that i was wrong and what i did/said is bad. though i know that i was only telling the truth, i ddnt realize that im also hurting my friend's feelings. yep. if you're reading this. sorry again. nywei.. this topic came up:

setting my goals in life is important. haha. quote of the day. or maybe for everyday. haha. napaisip? oo napaisip lng tlga ko. naalala ko ulit ung discussion sa school. homeroom period. monday. 8.35am. with my ms. delfin, my homeroom adviser. kya pla adviser twag sa knila noh? wahaha. nye ang korny. shit. corny shit, men... haha. ok enough. uh, i remembered that setting our goals in life, whether it be a long-term goal or short-term goal, u just hav to set your goals/ambitions. know what you really want to be and where you would like to lead your life. ms delfin told us that if you dont know what you want, you'll not achieve anything. if you will not give any effort to achieve your goals..then you'll not gain anything. kng d mo alam ang gs2 mong marating sa buhay.. bka mapunta ka lang sa buhay na ayaw mong maranasan o di mo ineexpect. [wow. surprise surprise haha.] i wrote down the quotes she gave us...and i'll share it with you... hehe! "  intelligence without ambition is like a bird without wings." quite corny but it's true. and " success is getting what you want. HAPPINESS is liking what you get.." <--- this one, i like! hahaha. bsta about being happy or making ourselves happy! hehe. know how to make yourself happy... right? just don't affect or hurt anyone to satisfy your happiness. haha.    so there. i got a quote. and i really love it.. "Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land amongst the stars..." - Les Brown syempre stars nnman db? haha. pro maganda tlga yan. hmm.. daming quotes pla sa mundo! lagi ako mgsshare.. hehe.

buhay nga nman...parang life. pakshet. hahaha.  that's all for now. good night!! mwah!

hahahaha. soooooobrang ang saya ko simula nung thursday pa! well. di xa about love. wala ako nun. nasa huli pa ko ng linya... tsk tsk. hmm.. happy!! kasi tapos na ang 2nd quarter exams!!!!! hahaha. so. after nun. nagbond kme nila elly sa bus..<d tlga ako sanay elly...hehe. but anyway..> ksma cla donna and joana. kasi lalabas kme. but unfortunately, sa robinsons place lng... pano.. d kme nagpaalam and wala kme pera!! poor. poor. tsk tsk dun ko lng napatunayan na mahirap gumimik ng wlang money! and too bad..i can't save enough money for the things i want to buy kc nauubos allowance ko for the week para sa foooooooood. tsk. #1 - expensive ang food sa caf. #2 - khit nagbabaon na ko ng lunch..hnd pa rin enough.. maybe bec. i don't eat breakfast every morning so i have to eat my packed lunch during recess.. then when it's already lunch break.. gutom lalo.. so mapapakain nnman ako. that's the time i buy expensive foods in the caf.. tsk tsk.. takaw-takaw kc! eh anyway, at least ginagastos ko ung money for food db? but i still need to save. lalo na ngayon.. kasi marami-rami kme gimiks! haha. nu ba yan..pro every week nman. here's our plan:

• oct. 21 - OktoberFest in eastwood. ksma ulit c tito nante then his barkada, then hopefully c ate tata, then ate trixie and her friends bcoz it's ate angel's bday pla! they're going to celebrate there in eastwood. at sana cla abi sumama pag ininvyt ko. haha!
• oct. 22 - eastwood again. with abi, donna, joana, mat2 and his friends...tss sana c mat2 lng tpos iinjanin xa ng friends nya. haha. xa lng kc klala ko eh. hahaha! and then masaya sana pmunta sa 20th anniv ata un ng 97.1 wlsfm in PICC kc andun lahat ng pinoy rock bandsss!!!!! as in halos lhat ng idol ko. haha. well especially spongecola! BUT THEN. sb nila magulo raw un and sa open space ata. sayang. and our club will have a wall climb in power-up-tandang sora, qc. but im not sure if i'll go because of our gimik... i want to. pro bka wla ako ksma.
• oct. 26 - just our club's JEC-AOC interaction... <in ESI ata.>
• oct. 29 - ateneo sophomores night... hmm.. im still thinking if i will go. kc habol ko lng dun ung bands! haha. if ever mganda ung bands. then i think i'll go. < kng ppyagan!! hahaha.> 

think that's all  for now. some are still tentative. still don't know the other plans. massurprise na lang ako! hahaha. biglaan kc usually eh! kainis haha.  

going back to my life... hmm. last thursday! we watched deuce bigalow european gigolo. bwahaha! hnd ko inaasahang ganun xa ka...... ano. parental guidance. haha but then 15 yrs old na ko! pwdeng pwd na ko. ok na un! haha. <kaso... tnanong prin mga age namin! haha liit kc eh..> actually sobrang funny nman nya!  saya. wala atang scene na hnd kme tumawa. kakahiya nga e nung may isang part dun sa sobrang laswa, napasigaw ako!! tssss. buti nmn mejo NR mga tao..haha. then.. nag-drums kme.. yea!! sa arcade nga lng.. haha.  un na kaligayahan ko. sorry na. haha. and then nkakairita kc may isang high school guy, na sumingit sa gitna ng aming kasiyahan. in fairness, magaling xa. as in. ang light ng pag-drums nya, well, he's doing the right way compared to us. kasi sobrang lakas ng pagpalo nman eh haha. nadadala mxdo... pro anyway.. ang hnd lng maganda ang attitude nya, ang bastos e, first, d nya tnanong kng tapos na kme..second, d nya pa inabot sa amin ung sticks, third, ang tagal-tagal nya. ang daya. kme kc dpat una e. pro ok. tapos na un. tpos nag window shopping lng since la tlga kme money. at umuwi na kme ng 4.30. bawal kme pagabi e and pagod na rin. tpos first time ko na mag-commute nun!! shet. nung una takot ako kc hnd ako sanay. pro nawala rin kc narealize ko...maliwanag pa sa labas. wla pa nmn cguro dpat ikatakot. kaya go go go na ko!at naglakad ako magisa sa village since malapit lng nmn dun sa gate ung house nmin. potah. masaya rin feeling. haha. im alive. pro wla pa un sa gngwa ni ____ kc kaya nya umuwi ng gabi magisa! haha. tss. can't beat the courage of that girl. idol ko na un e.  she's independent kc...sometimes. haha. 

then yesterday. kala ko soooobrang wlang kwenta weekend ko na 3 days pro mali. nung gabi, kakain kme sa labas! yippeeee! hehe. chibugan nnman... hmm dpat sa joel torre's chicken inasal kme. pro nalipat sa gerry's grill. hmm..kc nakailang kain n kme kay joel torre and mas msarap kumain sa gerry's lalo na sisig........ hehe. at gutom na rin kme nun. hmm pro gs2 ko sna sa old spaghetti house in katipunan pro yaw nila. ay nga pla. gusto ko rin pmunta sa kafe. sa taas lng pla un ng yellowcab eh...nkita ko kc un sa meg magazine. and dun ngpplay mga bands..usually ateneo or college students? hmm.. maybe i can spot sponge cola there! haha. asa?! tss. hmm. and then nung gabi... pmunta kme ni tito nante and ate tata sa OktoberFest sa eastwood. bawal kc c ate trix kc exams nya today.. then c raymund, kj.. wla raw sa mood. hnd rin ako umiinom ha! masaya naman! haha. bonding kme nila ate tata. sayaw pa kme pro sa seats lng hehe wla kc nkatayo e.. wla sa mood nga ung mga tao eh.. kya sb nung Pinikpikan band.."...eto na ang pinaka.....MALUNGKOT na oktoberfest! tumayo kyo jan! buhatin nyo ang mabibigat nyong pwet dhil bka nasobrahan kayo sa san mig beer!! *tawa!* pro sa bagay. peaceful tyo. hnd tulad nung nakaraang taon. nagbarilan pa jan sa likod! tsk tsk. peaceful..peaceful... *tawa!* ok... blah blah.." tpos kumanta na cla.  at take note. nakakaaliw nmn ung band nila! hahaha. daming ethnic instruments!! i thought they were boring. sb ko pa.. "galing ata toh sa probinsya e. sa bundok. *tawa!* " but i was wrong! judgemental tlga. tsk tsk. ang asteeg kc sinasabayan rin nila ng electric guitar and then drums kht may mga tambol na cla dun ha.... at 9 cla! 2 guitars, 1 vocals, 1 drums, 3 tambol or whatever, 2 percussion instruments. binilang ko pa ethnic instruments, 9 ata un! galing. very unique. pro xempre ung 9 na un, d sabay-sabay ginamit... haha. kaso hnd mo maintndhan ung lyrics. may srili xang language. pro ang main point nila.. they appreciate and honor filipino instruments! pra skanila. cool! hehe. sarap nga sumayaw e kaso....wla e. wla mxdo ksbay. may games din and asteeg nung hosts hehe. she's cool. and pretty rin kaso malaki tummy kc umiinom xa lagi. tpos magcocollect pa sna kme ng maraming plastic cup ng san mig beer eh! haha. pra kunwari malakas uminom. at d prin lasing haha. nakakailang para skin kc ako lng tlga minor dun. shet.  pro ok lng. mind their own business! pro hnd ko rin trip oktoberfest, pang matanda lng tlga un. tska tingin ko s knilang lhat adik.. pro ok lng. habol ko bands e. lagi naman. haha. anyway. aun. last band na pla. umalis na rin kme mga 1am. tpos un. end of story. haha.

next week na ulit!! hehe. at himala d ako inumaga gumawa ng entry. napansin nyo ba un?! haha astig. db?! hehe.